How do things fizzle out in a mere couple of days? Feelings, specifically?
There I was thinking you may be it. Until a couple of days later.
Your messages made me happy...for one day. Beyond that, they kept coming, and I found myself feeling increasingly burdened and annoyed.
And it's ridiculous! Horridly ridiculous. Because all of it felt a whole lot like a terrible nightmare.
I do feel bad. I feel like I was somewhat leading you on, only to desperately want to shrug you off like a big dirtbag.
I instantly thought of a line from the prologue from Red that really resonated with me.
"...you saw sparks that weren’t really there, felt
stars aligning without having any proof, saw your future before it happened,
and then saw it slip away without any warning..."
A spark it was exactly. Only this time wasn't like last time. This lasted less than what felt like a minute.
Maybe I'll find it one day. Maybe I'll come across an ember that ignites and lasts for a good while. One that leaves my heart racing even after what feels like forever.
For now...I'll consider this a lesson learnt.
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